I just came back from spring break... Instead of going home, I ended up going with the scoutmaster club (boyscouts)... to florida to go sailing~ it was an awesome experience..

this is the group of us that went on the trip (15 of us total)

We split up to two groups... Siesta and Bon Voyage.. I was on Siesta (picture below) with Sarah, Marydell, James, Joe, Frank, John, the sir, and Capt Ed. We headed out to sea on Saturday night and spent the night at Capt Ed's house (his dock was about 20-30 min away)

Every day was gorgeous.... especially the sunset... (i was sleeping during the sunrise )

The first day we were out on sea... i found out that i had "seasickness".. it wasn't too pleasant... however, johnie bravo hooked me up with some medicine that helped a lil.. so during the day i was pretty much dead to everyone.. (all i did was try to sleep so i wouldn't feel like i would throw up all the time) but when we stopped at the beach or when we anchored in a protected harbor, the waves weren't bad and i arose from the dead   Thats me in the blue! hehe~

another beautiful sunset.... *sigh* God is sooo good~! :)

we stopped at key west for a day and toured around. If you ever go there, go to pepe's... food is awesome and service is excellent! :)

we went snorkling the next day and it was really cool, except i was kind of disappointed cuz i couldn't swim with a sea turtle.. which was one of my goals.. lol, but yea we were going deep sea fishing and i was REALLLY sick from that, so when i went snorkling, i was still seasick.. so i didn't enjoy it as much as i could have... (bc the entire time i went snorkling i was thinking about trying to swim to shore.. lol except that would have been a long swim.... :)

and then... the next day... i CAUGHT A FISH!!! it was 6.5 lbs, 26inches, spanish mackeral. i cut it up and joe cooked it with some lemon pepper.. it was excellent!! :)

and then all of a sudden... it felt like time went by so quickly because that was the last sunset i would get to spend out on Siesta in the Keyes... so sad :(

the last night on sea base.. we celebrated with a good dinner and some entertainment.. i got to play the little guitar.. i forgot what it was called.. (starts with a M).. but yea basically its the first four strings of a guitar and the chords are backwards.. hehe it was pretty cool.. that night was pretty crazy fun : )

we spent the rest of the time in south beach just chilling on the beach and eating good food... oh how i miss the ocean...

:) that is all for now..

so im at princeton right now, on linds' computer... and its about 230am.. we just finished pearl harbor and i couldn't go to bed so i decided to update my xanga...

1. I just wanta say i love all of my high school friends....i feel so lucky that i get to go back home to a group of friends that i know will always be there for me now matter how long i was away.. :)

2. Relationships are tricky and hard. I don't understand why people play with my emotions sometimes... i guess this is all a learning experience... but its so hard and frustrating and it makes me sad that i dont see it coming.. (i hate being so naive and innocent..)

3. Friends at school seriously help me get through West Point and the ups/downs that I go through. Thanks..

**I know i've been so down lately and well.. yesterday the sun came out and it felt so nice to just feel the warmth touch my body. I'm trying my best to make the best out of the situations but its hard. I know these obstacles are just challenges that God gave me to mature and develop the potential that i have within me to succeed and fulfill my purpose....

*sigh*, so yea... these past two-three weeks have been pretty much draining any type of life in me... i feel that i can't vent complaints to my friends here because everyone here is going through the same thing, so it starts to become like a sad story that no one really cares about...

but i'm going to rant anyways... because i dont think its healthy if i keep it in my system.. PLUS, i need a break from all this studying.

Basically, i've had a lot of work.. okay usually when i say i have a lot of work... its where i shouldn't receive any pity because it was my fault.. as in i procrastinated so i deserve it... HOWEVER these past couple of weeks have been non stop TESTS after PROJECTS after ESSAYS...and the sad part of it all is that it hasn't stopped.... it just keeps going. and going... sometimes i can't tell whether its day out or night out because im always working in front of the computer screen.... ive been getting about 3-4 hours of sleep per night and it doesn't help when during the weekends, its filled up with more stuff meaning i can't do hw or sleep...

... so yea, that was my vent... i feel as though this constant stress level is really draining my motivation for everything... it makes me think about the type of people who go here and the type of enviornment, lifestyle.. i dont think i can really deal with the competition too much longer, why do people in general always have to fight about everything or want to put down other people in order for them to feel better? its such a vicious cycle... which brings me to another point..

i teach 6th grade girls (God's Gang), its basically where i go and teach bible study and play games with 6th grade girls on saturday nights. It brings me back to the good ole days when i was being taught by Jeong, Esther, Ann, Eric, Eugene... and how much i looked up to them and how much time i tried to waste without actually doing the bible study.. lol  anyways, we had a lockin this past saturday (which was another reason i couldn't sleep) and i just saw how different girls treated each other as they were growing up... cliques start to form, alliances, girls getting picked on... and i remember those days, mostly because i always got picked on as a girl esp by other girls.. i felt that fitting in was just so hard because i never felt that i was pretty or smart or athletic or just cool in general.. i just bring this up because i think no matter how old you are, there is always going to be some type of competition you will have to go through... its just part of life... so i guess the answer = just be happy with yourself and do the best that YOU can do...

okay, thats it.. my break is over, time to do my papers, and problem sets...

Why is it so hard for me to commit myself to be in a relationship?

I haven't written in here for a long time, but this weekend was so much fun. Jeremy, Chris (jeremy's friend from school), Mark, Peter, Scott, Jimmy and I all went down to so cal to visit long (who gave up going to las vegas for us!!) and chill for the weekend. Well, lets say, having a video camera made it more fun because we made some incredibly fruity movies.. lol like the baywatch one.. so, some highlights are...

1. we met Damen Jones (on the Heats) and i got his signature, and we got him on tape.... peterie was so starstruck bc he didn't even know who damen jones was and he wanted the autograph that i got.. lol, scott was the first person to spot him out.. so good job!

2. we built the most ridiculous hole at the beach... it was about 6 feet deep and four people were able to fit inside it.. crazy isn't it? well, long, scott, mark and I got in and when they were starting to fill in the hole, long was able to escape and just the three of us were stuck... ohh man... it took us about a good 1-2 hours to get us out.. they were trying to get scott out first but that was silly bc he was the biggest guy and it would be easier to get me (the smallest) one out of the hole, anyways i got out first despite everyones argument and then scott and the mark.... the feeling of getting trapped in sand was no joke. it is really scary bc it feels like you are in a corsett for yer entire body and if someone else moved then you couldn't breathe and we ended up getting closer together.... oh yea, and while we were digging the hole, some lady came up to us and told us about a guy that died after digging a big hole bc quicksand got to him... that freaked me out at the time only bc i was in the hole digging... but yea that was fun..

3. all the card games we played... zuma zuma was a highlight, seven, and kings cup... and last but not least, egyptian ratscrew...... peterie has one on me and i have one on him... and someone long got one on both of us... i dont know how HE got in the picture  but yea, that game seriously got heated for a while... nothing like a good QUIET game of ratscrew... heh

4. the walk back from the beach to long's house... prolly at least a good 7-8 miles ( i think more but it might of been because i was wearing sandals).. Mark walked with me the entire way, i dont know how he found me from the beginning, but it was good to talk to him about things and see different perspectivies.. although i knew most of the stuff that mark was talking about, it just felt nice that someone cared enuff to talk about those things and tried to comfort me as a friend... thanks mark .. emily too was awesome bc she called to check on me every 15 min, what a buddy!!

5. Emily drove up from San Diego to see me in LA before i left for school bc that would be the last time i would see her before thanksgiving.. Thanks EM!! it was fun hanging out and talking about stuff! :)

6. I had a late night talk with scott which was good bc we talked a lot about the past and about the future of our lives, it was nice to talk to all the different people and the input that they give me about my future with West Point.. thanks~

7. All i can say about Jimmy is that no one should watch the video from the camcord... and if you do, especially for the ladies, beware...

8. Jeremy and Long will always be my two homeboys from the Crossings.. :)

9. Petrie.. i own you at egyptian ratscrew.. lol suckaaaa!!

10. Chris. Chris. Zuma. Zuma....... etc

and that about wraps up the trip from socal on the 4th of july... if you want to see the video recording then talk to either jimmy or scott...

ahhh london in four days... im screwed.... i am in no shape to train with the british military academy...